Mixed Bag

The other day is was just sitting listening to songs and my mind wandered, thinking about some issues. Then it came up with this question, What is 'LIFE'? Is it a journey which starts from birth and ends in death? Or is it just part of the journey, "soul in-transit", which we can see, feel and live through? Or the actual journey is of our soul which can end only in "Salvation", but only after it goes through these "journey called life" and there can be many such journeys / in-transit phases of the soul before we actually attain "Salvation". Sadly, death is very much part of our presence here on earth. Death's the only certainity in this very uncertain life.

I am reading this amazing book called 'The Fifth Discipline' by Peter Senge. And the book has shifted my way of thinking just about everything. I am know looking at the whole / big picture rather than just a part of it. I am know trying to be less prejudiced and think from an open mind without any assumptions. This book also enabled me to see the reality, the truth rather than what my mind perceived with all its prejudices and assumptions. While reading it, I came about to soul - search and think why I am here, what's my purpose, my vision? What I want to achieve in this life?

Be firm yet be flexible. Be strong yet still ask for help. Be self-respecting yet be respecting. Always be truthful, especially to our ownself. Money is not everything in life, being happy, being emotionally fulfilled, being at peace with your innerself, being satsified is. At the end I wish I did not have any regrets about anything in life and I feel that my life was well lived and well spent. Would like to die with a smile on my lips knowing that I was a good human being, worthy of being related to be everyone I knew and lived to the expectations of my near and dear ones.

It's not the fault of the roses,
Nor is the falut of the thorns,
The sad part is though,
I fell in love with thorns rather than roses.

Night filled with stars,
The moon is shining through,
Gentle wind blowing through,
And yet I find myself all lonely.

To few drops of rain for this parched earth,
To few friends in this lonely life,
No care for the broken tree,
No love for the empty heart.

I have realised many things in life, especially after coming to Melbourne. One of them is, to have the ability to let go of people. I have read somewhere, that right (wrong) people come in your life at the right (wrong) moment and leave at the right (wrong) moment, accomplishing whatever they were supposed to do.

People who smile a lot, does not mean that they do not have any sort of pain. They do have pain, it's that they manage it in a much better way. Pain in any form (especially if it's psychological / emotional) pricks us a lot. Everybody has some sort of pain, it's not the question of how deep it is, question is how can you manage it no matter how deep it is? Some one said it right, 'Oh Pain, don't fall in love with me.'

'LOVE' is one of the most misunderstood word / emotion / feeling / term in any language. Sometimes we cannot differentiate between a passing crush, infautation, lust and love. If we ask ourselves, What is Love? What comes to our mind, heart, body and soul? Many things and yet which one is true or right, eh? Love is a strange thing, sometimes it gives us limitless joy / happiness and sometimes unbearable pain.

We wait almost all our lifes, dreaming for 'the right person.' But the truth is there's no such thing called right person. It's only how we perceive or the perception we hold about a person. It's our idealism, beliefs, values that leads us to the misperception of a right person. is it not better to meet a person and see that whether he / shecan become the right person by continually evolving throughout the lifetime. Of course, the person has to have some degree of 'rightness' that we seek and in normal terms we call it "Attraction". And the process of evolving together becomes "A Love Affair of a Lifetime", though many people do not realise it. One of my wish and hope is, that I find a person with whom I can grow old with, with the grace of God Almighty it is grnated.

"We always want something and what we get is what we need."

There are many things which are left unsaid in our lives. We are aware of them, but don't know what exactly it is. They are always present in the subconsicous mind and rarely comes out. Sometimes they might come out in the form of dreams or nightmares. The choice is ours, whether we just want to be a mute spectator watching our life passing by us or be in control to what's happening.